what I am to you... (written with an ego and a broken heart)

I asked you what I was to you
You said someone beautiful and dear

I asked you what I was to you
And maybe I wasn’t very clear

This is something new for me
I don’t share my heart with men

This is something new for me
To want you more than I’ve been fed

And I don’t know that that is what I need right now
But it is the hopelessness I feel

Like once again I find myself here
Alone and tired in a world very real

I asked you what I was to you
And you said an inspiring spirit, your muse

I asked you what I was to you
And your answer turned this poem into the blues

This is something new to me
To be uplifted by a man

This is something new to me
And I didn’t say it as clear as I can

It is crystal what it is right now
Just a means to an end

And I sit one more time in limbo
Holding my heart out to mend
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I wrote this in May 2005 about Jason, but it reminds me of today.