robinhood theory.

Thinking about GG right now. Wanting to call him and give the "do you still love me or not" ultimatum . Pathetic yeah?? Well, Am I hungry or ginger in feeling?

Sorry about for ditching you last night. I feel kind of guilty that I chose a Party over hanging out with you. But I wanted to go to Bohemian Carnival and expected to enjoy it, the whole experience ended up being underwhelming and overwhelming at the same time... if you know what I mean. That was a selfish thing to do.

regress, that was the word.

I'm out of ideas, so I will wait until something tells me what to do.
[pulls me elsewhere].

I am definitely just running away from something.

These are my 25cents.

and this is my robinhood theory.

Manifest-oh!

Tons of folks looking to move to SF, and I am feeling torn between doing just that, staying here, and travelling on. I need a bit more work to make it feasible to move. I still don't have enough for a month's rent, deposit and some extra cash to sit comfortable. I may have to wait until January. Living with Serra sounds amazing though, I wish I could bust my butt and get a move on. Where is my money going? Where will it end up? How can it happen faster. I have a dream of my life and I float through it like a spirit. Just another month or so of work. It would be nice to be there for the holidays though. I am here to work and then continue on, wherever that may be. I think I will enjoy going to SF for Thanksgiving... maybe my creative streak will come back. I really would love to live with Serra! Let me manifest a place to live in SF in January with Serra!

WHat oh shit! What did I just write? Live in SF? I haven't thought about that seriously. We'll see at Thanksgiving time...

much love! I'll be a better writer later!

man= tower

The night the man burned was like the tower card being pulled.
or rather,
the meaning of the tower card, old ways/understandings/truths being broken down allowing for newness. was epitomed the night the man burned.
the man burning was my visual of the tower falling down... and I didn't even really pay attention. but in retrospect, I see.