∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß ∑ß
∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ∞º˚˙ ∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ∞º˚˙ ∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ∞º˚˙ ∑ß ∞º˚˙ ∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ∞º˚˙ ∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ∞º˚˙
(little fishy...hehe)
∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ˙˚º∞ ∑ß ˙˚º∞
feelings on the wayward side
shut like a door
outside (inside)
in the cold (it's cold)
miserable winter
the leaves have fallen
the bark is bitter
so are my thoughts
wind through my knits
thick knee high socks
i'd like the wind to loosen my knots
i'd like time to stop it's watch
so i'd stop looking for it
passing it
and still waiting for it
i wish time would stop
so i'd have too much
and not know what to do with it
i don't know what to do with it
or mine
but i know there is enough
i've got to stretch my legs and out my arms
to grab hold of something
someone
love
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<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
I have to learn how to hug and love myself, before i can give to someone else. and I keep asking myself, why don't I love myself enough to open up to someone and give them attention and a large part of myself that I know is beautiful. I am alot of things, but I It seems like I am living falsely recently. To people, I've maintained major distances. And show them very little of who I am. To potential new friends and even to my closest, oldest friends. I need to stop feeling ashamed for not being in a relationship. And not feel embarrassed when I am hanging out with couples, and arrive at events solo. I'm going to have that time. In the meantime, I am going to take a class at city college. and tackle my other obstacle of social situations. blah blah blah. I do love myself. I just don't know what to do with my life, what direction to go in, or where to be settled. Within and out.
p.s. uber dork out with the little hearts and fish banners. hahaha
