I said it's 4:30!

What is is about timing and departures that I have major trouble with?

Maybe it is the fear of missing out of the next happening in the place I am leaving. Or maybe it is the inevitable end and beginning moments, that define new chapters in life, that I have, by example, learned to resist. Whatever the reason- I make a choice and then something comes up and distracts me from my plan. This occurred today when I was getting ready to leave sf for the mountains. I got all ready and then phoned a friend who said he was heading down this way and we should meet in Santa Rosa for a live show. I thought very little and then responded 'okay'. In hindsight, I forgot about this puppy phenomenon, I now have saddled to my hip, and must make accomodations for. No more living at the breath of the wind. No more gypsyesque behavior until this puppy goes potty properly.

more later...

ce la vie here or there or everywhere!

I am having a flashback to post-burning man days and not just because it's that time of year. but I am in sf and it's feeling (and even smelling) like september. and i am at desi's house, where i stayed for a few days post the mayhem. and then i see GG. and how aproupo that i see GG leaving the city all packed up and heading to gerlach. same time last year we were doing it together. I don't even live here and that's the visual i see having not even seen him for nearly a year. how amazingly appropriate. i love the universe and it's ridiculous alignments. closure of sorts. i sent him off into the wild desert with a simple hand thrown up and a 'have fun!' that's all i can do or say, and that is what i truly hope for him. I cannot contain my laughter though at the synchronicity of our souls. and the narrowly missing each other every time. ce la vie!!! ce la vie!!!!!!!

my sweet puppy

is black as the night
my sweet puppy is sly like a ninja
my sweet puppy's name was perfectly chosen by the universe
my sweet puppy has an appetite for squirreling, fetching, and nipping
she's just a puppy though

and my sweet puppy just wants to love you
my sweet puppy prefers to poop on white carpets
my sweet puppy showed up on my doorstep like a gift
my sweet puppy is the cutest when she's sleeping
she's just a puppy though

wait until she's full grown :)

just being around you...

underneath you
near you
or beside you
brings comfort and wonderment to my every breath

just seeing things with you
through you
all over you
made by you
invokes inspiration and amusement at my every turn
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I care deeply for this beautiful earthy humble man. I have no real sense of what we are past tomorrow. but this is good. and presently all that is possible. I will keep the excitement at a level I can enjoy and keep him still pleasantly surprised with delightful dalliances in delerium. love and more love.