verbal diarrhea not suitable in an email to a lover...

It begins with my comparing the arrangement we have with his and Karin's. I see it as unfair, that she didn't invest anything into it at the beginning, and has put time into it 'here and there' throughout, and finally, comes up only when there is a finished product and will be compensated the same as me. When I discussed everything with Ryan in the beginning, my compensation would have been different had I done it her way. And there are a few things that we discussed would be provided and were difficult to obtain and/or not provided. Lastly, he said he'll take care of everyone else's and then ours. I feel that I have put a lot of effort out during all of this and he is forgetting that what is mine is his too. It doesn't really matter because I wasn't relying on him for this part of it, but it still felt like a snub. So all these things that I haven't vocalized are adding up and then sharing this small space with so many people is what is driving me crazy. (or this is what I am telling myself today)